LightofPatience's Blog

Waiting.

lightofpatience — Thu, 26 Jan 2012 21:07:24 +0000

Hidden in the depths of my despair, waiting for someone to save me but no one is coming. They’re all walking past me as if nothing is wrong.
I must be brilliant at hiding how I feel.

The World

lightofpatience — Thu, 26 Jan 2012 03:11:52 +0000

It’s as if when I finally become happy the world throws something in my face and screams at me saying, “stop being so happy, you’re not allowed to be happy…get used to being sad and depressed all the time”.

The Moon’s Tale

lightofpatience — Thu, 26 Jan 2012 02:41:12 +0000

I lie awake in my bed as I try to fall asleep, the moon sneaks in my room and tells me a tale of love and gloom.
A tale of when the moon set sail across the galaxies just to find a maiden, as fair and lovely as me.
But I, a human, could never love thee.
For as he talks, he can see the fear and fright soaring through my body.
So for now, he’ll watch me from the sky while I sleep.
And protect me when I have bad dreams.
One thing is for sure, when I die, we’ll surely meet.

The things i’ll never be able to say

lightofpatience — Thu, 26 Jan 2012 01:45:54 +0000

There’s so much i need to say and i didn’t get a chance to, but now it’s too late and you’ll always think i’m a horrible person.
I can’t even look you in the face, it’s too devastating, i’m afraid you’ll see my tears and how much i’m hurting inside. I’d rather you just think i’m a bad person, maybe that’d be better.

My Heart

lightofpatience — Fri, 20 Jan 2012 05:04:05 +0000

Play with my heart, tear it apart.
It’s yours forever, rip it from my body or take care of it. Your choice.

Salty Tears

lightofpatience — Thu, 19 Jan 2012 03:25:33 +0000

Salty tears run down my ice cold cheeks.
Where it and my lips meet.
I let it slide between my teeth
and as it rests, I dare not speak.

Clean sheet of paper

lightofpatience — Wed, 11 Jan 2012 01:12:33 +0000

I keep staring at this blank sheet of paper. My pen keeps moving but all that comes out are incoherent sentences and scribbles.
I was told to write how I feel, but when I was angry, I’d draw harsh lines,
and when I was sad, I’d let my tears fall on the paper, and when I was happy, I’d find no reason to write.
I’m sad now, with a mixture of mad now, and I just want to let go and write, but writing it down seems more like a fight.

Before you.

lightofpatience — Sun, 01 Jan 2012 06:05:09 +0000

Haunted by my thoughts.
Reminded by my memories.
A quiet symphony living in my head.
The depths of which i have never dreamed of searching.
Angels on my shoulder writing down my every actions.
A soft tear escapes my eye.
Same story on a different day.
Scolded for the same old crime.
Written words in an old rusty red journal.
Nothing takes the pain away except living.
The greatest blessing anyone was given.
Underestimated by everyone.
Put up walls of unbreakable steel.
Chained up my tongue.
Tried singing a melody.
All that came out was a sigh.

Just…

lightofpatience — Thu, 29 Dec 2011 05:16:14 +0000

Just a simple smile, but when it escapes your mouth it makes my life go wild.

Just a laugh, but when I hear it my eyes twinkle with happiness.

Just one innocent hug, but when you put your arms around me, I never want you to let go.

A White Wall

lightofpatience — Fri, 23 Dec 2011 02:25:24 +0000

I’ve been staring at a wall for the past few hours, making up scenarios and playing them all in my head as if you were here.

My heart aches every time I think of you, it’s when I remember all the pain I put you through. I wonder if you’ve cried just thinking about my lies, thinking of my disguises, and how I hurt you so much inside.

I have a grave dug in my backyard, I go there to lay and think about how one day this grave will say my name. One day I’ll be gone and nobody will remember the stupid girl who committed so much wrong. My name will be replaced by others and when time passes my grave will be so hidden that children will dance above it, not knowing what’s below the ground. They’ll build house, where they sleep and underneath is where I’ll weep.